my intanggible journal

2006-08-20T18:59:00.000-07:00

hindi ko alam kung lumaki lang ako o talagang umimpis na ang pan de sal.

hay naku! haiku

2006-07-20T09:01:00.000-07:00

between ink and mouse,
i am caught. to graphite or
click-undo-click-save?

2006-07-18T17:26:00.001-07:00

i held you in my arms
i felt the warmness of your body
i looked straight into your eyes

i touched the palm of your hands
i caressed your face
only to find out

you are not real

you are pixel dust
a believe-in fantasy

an existential loophole
an irrational truth

you touch my face
look straight into my eyes
you imagine i was right in front of you
you feel my back
you were certain i was there

but i am not real

you are not real

2006-07-09T20:21:00.000-07:00

my pen frustrates me
it doesn't go where i want it to go
my pen frustrates me
it does not do what i ask it to do
my pen frustrates me
it has a mind of its own

2006-06-29T23:10:00.000-07:00

my song for the day: "Don't wait" by Dashboard Confessional. the band that helped push my imagination, turned my hopes down...at least for one thing.

2006-06-29T22:42:00.000-07:00

"was in ihrer Phantasie möglich ist, kann auch erfunden werden!"
-Marvelous Milly
-If you can imagine it, you can make it.

a very happy unBirthday to you!

2006-06-28T07:49:00.000-07:00

The madhatter tells Alice that we get to spend a day for our birthday, now we have approximately 364 un-Birthdays!

-currently soaking in Alice n' Wonderland's philosophy...aaaaaawe.

closer

2006-06-26T08:50:00.001-07:00

i've just finished viewing the movie, "Closer." I'd say it's the best satirical, real love story there is. The idea forwarded by the movie is simply loving too much is not good for both parties.Wammee puts it best into words: "without self, it is impossible to love"

petistic: February 2006

2006-03-16T21:40:00.000-08:00

petistic: February 2006

2005-12-23T11:48:00.000-08:00

i see public art (ie graffiti) as art exuding bravery and forward thinking.
what makes it so appealing is its finality and anarchistic bend.

I found very good examples from Eric Orr's web.
Imagine making art out of a subway map, well you
don't have to imagine, just view his art...

http://bravemind.com/ericart/subwayseries/sub_ser_index.html

2005-12-21T14:38:00.000-08:00

lost it, again.
the only thing i waited for
it passed me by
a buzz
now a faint memory
too much heart
just too much heart

2005-12-20T20:37:00.000-08:00

No art is possible without a dance with death...
-Celine and His vision, Erika Ostrowsky

Time obsessed him, Miss Otrowsky reminded
me of the amazing scene in Death on the Insatallment
Plan where Celine wants to stop a bustling street crowd,
He screams on paper, make them stop...
don't let them move anymore at all...
There, make them freeze...
once and for all...so that they
won't disappear anymore!
-Slaughterhouse five, Kurt Vonnagut

"there's more to balance than not falling over."

2005-12-16T20:14:00.000-08:00

that, was according to my lucky fortune cookie.

2005-12-15T10:03:00.000-08:00

specks of ice fall from the sky
wild birds rush, shifting from tree to tree for food
my nose bleeds...
my german exams is scheduled tomorrow

2005-12-14T10:54:00.000-08:00

2005-12-12T15:08:00.000-08:00

seriously mannerist gate {dresden}

2005-12-12T15:06:00.000-08:00

how fragile is the situation? this fragile?

2005-12-12T08:24:00.000-08:00

i wonder what papersandwich tastes like?
if burger tastes nothing like live cow
then there's a chance that
papersandwich would not taste like paper.

2005-12-11T18:06:00.000-08:00

,,...i have confidence in confidence alone!"

i have confidence lyrics

What will this day be like? I wonder.
What will my future be? I wonder.
It could be so exciting to be out in the world, to be free
My heart should be wildly rejoicing
Oh, what's the matter with me?

I've always longed for adventure
To do the things I've never dared
And here I'm facing adventure
Then why am I so scared

...
What's so fearsome about that?

Oh, I must stop these doubts, all these worries
If I don't I just know I'll turn back
I must dream of the things I am seeking
I am seeking the courage I lack

The courage to serve them with reliance
Face my mistakes without defiance
Show them I'm worthy
And while I show them
I'll show me

So, let them bring on all their problems
I'll do better than my best
I have confidence they'll put me to the test
But I'll make them see I have confidence in me

Somehow I will impress them
I will be firm but kind
And all those children (Heaven bless them!)
They will look up to me

And mind me with each step I am more certain
Everything will turn out fine
I have confidence the world can all be mine
They'll have to agree I have confidence in me

I have confidence in sunshine
I have confidence in rain
I have confidence that spring will come again
Besides which you see I have confidence in me

Strength doesn't lie in numbers
Strength doesn't lie in wealth
Strength lies in nights of peaceful slumbers
When you wake up -- Wake Up!

It tells me all I trust I lead my heart to
All I trust becomes my own
I have confidence in confidence alone(Oh help!)
I have confidence in confidence alone
Besides which you see I have confidence in me!

2005-12-09T10:25:00.000-08:00

Wammee and myself is inflicted with Vaguesease.

doods cut and pasted my words

2005-12-07T08:11:00.000-08:00

preparing for my german exams.... in speech class on using contraceptives?

surreal mornings

2005-12-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

it's when you're awaken by your aunt, who enters the room with a bag containing her passport and says, "save this bag in case there's a fire."

it's when my breakfast and lunch are so intricately joined

there are moments when my bed becomes me and i can hardly toss myself from bed just because me and the bed are one

too early, too late

2005-12-06T07:04:00.000-08:00

snowfight

2005-12-06T06:37:00.000-08:00

oh it's so funny 'seeing' you mad.hihi. funny, like playing with the snow.I wish i had a target for snow fight though.if you were here I'd surely hit you on critical corners.

schnee!!! snow!!!

2005-12-05T10:36:00.000-08:00

it's snowing!!!

Madonna sings my song

2005-12-03T17:37:00.000-08:00

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken I loved you so
Freedom comes when you learn to let go
Creation comes when you learn to say no

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress you had to burn
Pain is a warning that something's wrong
I pray to God that it won't be long

Walk away
There's nothing left to try
There's no place left to hide
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye

Your heart is not open so I must go
The spell has been broken I loved you so

You were my lesson I had to learn
I was your fortress
There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye

Learn to say good-bye
I yearn to say good-bye

There's nothing left to try
There's no more places to hide
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye

There's nothing left to lose
There's no more heart to bruise
There's no greater power than the power of good-bye

borrowed time

2005-12-02T09:35:00.000-08:00

today, upon waking up, i wispered: 'god help me be different.'

oh & wammeeee...gluecksbringer is good luck charm in german.
i added u as freundin meaning...girlfriend.

color me day

2005-12-01T13:15:00.000-08:00

gluecksbringer

2005-11-30T08:58:00.000-08:00

tell me your secret

2005-11-30T08:51:00.000-08:00

to the habit of getting lost!

2005-11-30T08:31:00.000-08:00

why is it that even if i don't know where to go
i go on walking
and looking
and searching?

why is it that even if i don't know what to say
i go on talking
and standing
and waiting?

why is it that even if i don't know what to do
i go on dreaming
and wishing
and laughing?

why is it that even if i don't want to fall
i go on falling
and falling
and falling?

2005-11-30T08:00:00.000-08:00

he , for example. He's a very practical person choosing what's there. Something he can grasp and understand, something he can live by.

It's quite the opposite of where I started. I wanted magic and vacation and non-linear. And I guess I don't want to ever change that even if it's quite hard to find a match in that line of spirit.

on love

2005-11-30T07:47:00.000-08:00

Love is a battlefield as the song goes. But what happens after the fighting is done?
Do I also become one of the homeless veterans in the dark corners of the New York subway.
Or do I end up collecting metal stars and bands?

,,Abschied" von Rainer Maria Rilke

2005-10-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

Rainer Maria Rilke - Parting

How I have felt that thing that's called 'to part',
and feel it still: a dark, invincible,
cruel something by which what was joined so well
is once more shown, held out, and torn apart.

In what defenceless gaze at that I've stood,
which, as it, calling to me, let me go,
stayed there, as though it were all womanhood,
yet small and white and nothing more than, oh,

waving, now already unrelated
to me, a sight, continuing wave,--scarce now
explainable: perhaps a plum-tree bough
some perchinig cuckoo's hastily vacated.

pawee

2005-07-25T21:08:00.000-07:00

my unfinished leatherback turtle artwork
for the upcoming Animalaya exhibit.

from dust

2005-07-20T04:43:00.000-07:00

how i'd love to get on my bicycle and feel the cold,cold pitter patter of the rain as they welcome me.

my memory degrades...
and yet it degrades gracefully

ich bin krank, um ich nach Hause gehen will.

2005-07-13T16:00:00.000-07:00

Mein Haus ist sehr bunt. Vielliecht meine grosse Familie macht es bunt.
My Haus is very colorful. Maybe my big family makes it so.

target

2005-07-06T20:25:00.000-07:00

cat story

2005-07-06T15:39:00.000-07:00

today, i decided to join the Barlaya Children's Book Illustration workshop by Adarna : ) I haven't decided on what technique or medium to use...tsk..tsk...only 2 days to go...

what do i know about cats? Hmmm...all I know is that they're the urbanized species of the mighty,big cats of the wild.

Konrad, das Krokodil

2005-07-06T02:16:00.000-07:00

Konrad, das Krokodil ist fix und fertig.
was soll er machen?
vielleicht findet er eine wuenderbare Moeglichkeit zu fliegen...
vielleicht soll er ein fantastische Zaubermann finden...
was denkst du?

my intanggible journal

hay naku! haiku

a very happy unBirthday to you!

closer

petistic: February 2006

"there's more to balance than not falling over."

"Versprichst du mir, ich soll genesen in diesem Wust von Raserei? "- Goethe"Are you promising me that I will get well in this mad confusion?"

doods cut and pasted my words

surreal mornings

too early, too late

snowfight

schnee!!! snow!!!

Madonna sings my song

borrowed time

color me day

gluecksbringer

tell me your secret

to the habit of getting lost!

on love

,,Abschied" von Rainer Maria Rilke

pawee

from dust

ich bin krank, um ich nach Hause gehen will.

target

cat story

Konrad, das Krokodil

"Versprichst du mir, ich soll genesen in diesem Wust von Raserei? "- Goethe
"Are you promising me that I will get well in this mad confusion?"